This particular day was hard & a stomach turning roller
coaster of a ride. I know that “in with
the new” is really going to be amazing once I look back in the next year. I am looking forward to the bigger &
better things. I tried my hardest to
stay strong..I only cried a few times, but the stomach took many turns, dips
& dives throughout the day.
When we pulled up to the house & I first saw the
excavator & dumpster my heart pounded, skipped a beat here & there and
my stomach flipped flops it’s never flipped flopped before. I knew this day had to come & honestly
the sooner the better. But in all
honesty I wasn’t prepared. It’s like
when you lose someone you love & you weren’t expecting it and the day comes
to put them to rest. Your mind just hasn’t
caught up to the process yet.
I tried to distance myself from everyone around so I could
take pictures & just have my moment of silence. The first slap the excavator claw took to the
house I just wanted to bury myself. It
was the most bittersweet moment I’ve felt to date. What a crazy feeling!!! There was no going back and really this is
what I was thinking. No going back
happened June 15, 2012 the house was beyond any repair that morning.
I felt part of the day move in slow motion & other parts
went quickly. It was hot & a threat
of rain lingered but never showed up.
There were so many ups & downs throughout the day. Kacey & I went to lunch just the two of
us. It was nice & we haven’t done
that in a very long time. We went to
Annarella’s on the Green. This is the
restaurant right across & up the hill from our house that sits on the golf
course. It is beautiful & peaceful
there…just what we needed. The owners
went through what we are going through last September (but they just now was
able to demo their house..lots going on for them & I pray for them daily). This was the first time we’ve been in there since
the fire. Anna was so nice,
compassionate, caring, etc. She provided
us lunch on her & told us anytime to come in & eat that it is on her
& if there is anything they could do they were willing & able. My heart filled up with joy &
appreciation!!
There was a foundation wall we had been watching throughout
the morning. It had a bow in it & I
started taking pictures of it early. By
the time we came back from lunch it was far worse. We ended up with that
foundation wall collapsing & all I can say is thank GOD I was standing were
I was to yell out that it was coming down.
We have had angels surrounding us & someone that loves us very much
watching over us.
The house has completely been removed. I am very thankful for the guys that have
been working with us. They have known
Kacey since he was just a teenager & the compassion that they have shown is
appreciated. Kacey’s business is busy
(thankfully) and so much of the process is on my shoulders. I don’t want to let my husband down so I must
remain strong & intact. I have a ton
of confidence that the group we have will continue to guide me & explain
every inch of this rebuild to me with kindness & professionalism (because I
will be asking dumb questions along the way J
).
We are almost done with the plans which means we can soon
submit for our building permits. I am
excited & I am starting to fall in love with what lies ahead. This was out of my control & a love I
have been forced into.
Soon there will be pictures that will show the new…
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